Wednesday, June 30, 2004
hey blog...
i am writing
to you. hahahahahaah
im going mad.
im talking to my baby girl now on the phone.
just now a lot of places black out.
baby got affected. poor thing.
then complain to me she is hot.
poor girl.
i feel like changing blog layout again.
man i change blog layout like i change underwear seh.
hahahaha..
the fact still lies however that i dont wear undies.
hahaha..
i like going commando.
so now me n b are just in silence.
we like on the phone but just keeping quiet.
ahaha...she just said hi.
so much for silence.
anyways i screwed my maths major. i really feel stupid.
today was bad.
haiz...
but haiz...
redemption with biology la.
ok...u can do this!!!
:D
--insignificant lies--
12:11 am
Monday, June 28, 2004
Letters To You
by Finch
Album : What It Is To Burn,
Falling Into Place [Ep]
Submitted by : Sophie
Corrected by : mattu
Can't you see
That I wanna be
There with open arms
It's empty tonight
And I'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to
So far away?
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I'm writing again
These letters to you
Aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping and
You're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to
So far away?
No more looking,
I've found home
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I've gone away
--insignificant lies--
11:43 pm
1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
taurus
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
taken
3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
by my honey baby b!
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVE/D?
yesh i have.
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED SUiCiDAL?
if i did...i guess it would be because of love. cos it has ever crossed my mind
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
suicide is killing your problem for a short while. but never yourself. cos the pain still persists. and the pain will continue cos u will go to hell.
7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
classic
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
i like cute/smart. hehe... i have tt already.
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR BF/GF/CRUSH?
yesh i am. i love her and she loves me. until the end of time baby.
10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
b!
11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE GENDER? WHO?
samuel ong.
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
write in my journal.(which i never do anymore.)and getting hugs and kisses.
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
i prefer cheerful.
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
as long as its with my baby girl.
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY IS BLUE?
why would i wonder such a thing.
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
yesh i have.
17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN? WITH LOVE???
one bitten twice shy. tts wat they say.
but after getting my heart broken so many times.
im still falling in love. and now im in love.
cos you know why..cos love makes u feel GREAT...despite all the shit.
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
i just can't be bothered tt much to hate someone like hell.
19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
nobody has dumped me.
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
high on java.
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
not anymore.
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
never.
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
yeah. my inner voice kills me.
24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
malu rugi. tak malu dapat.
and carpe diem.
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS
huh??? watever.
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
huH????
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
no..love is. cos love makes the world go round.
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
i dont snore. but i do kick here n there.
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
very difficult.
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
i can't sleep more than 6 hours a day or else i will get groggy.
i prefer to just not sleep unless i am super tired.
32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
of course!
33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
sometimes. but then i catch myself.
--insignificant lies--
2:42 am
Saturday, June 26, 2004
in the midst of everything i guess i have lost myself.
and in this time i want to say
that losing me and losing my life
that's the worst thing that i could have let happen.
but to you all
i am still strong.
and i will not drop
or fall down.
so don't worry about me k.
i will be fine.
i got my two girls.
and i got my b! with me. and that is all that i need.
ciaoz.
[b!+abe]
--insignificant lies--
9:19 pm
Friday, June 25, 2004
in my absence
don't forget to write a letter.
don't forget to confer
a myriad of words
wrapped in a nutshell.
in my absence
pray for terror
for an awakening
that causes tremors
that swell from the core
inside out.
in my absence
run away as fast as you can
in case you regret
in case you've found
a rarer gem.
in my absence
thread the finest silk
and pray you don't fall off
head first
skull cracked
blood leaking out.
in my absence
shoot yourself
and pray to god
your sin is purged
and dire needs
burn down to dust
ashes all at once
cover the soot
the kohl lining your eyes.
--insignificant lies--
3:44 am
Thursday, June 24, 2004
*more questionnaire..yeah i know i am killing u ppl...bu khai u got to do this one yeah!!!*
What time did you go to bed last night?:
2am++
What time did you wake up this morning?
1037am exactly. i checked my watch. hahahaha...
Do you know what woke you up?
sms from kei.
Who was the first person you saw this morning?:
My sister who was sleeping like a log and ejoying the aircon.
What did you have for breakfast?:
I havent eaten u dodo...
What was the first song you listened to today?:
Another Level-fRom the heart from edd's blog.
Who was the first person you thought about when you woke up?
Ms Mani and the fact that she is sick. which is ultra good for me cos i dont have to see her today! yeah!
Who did you talk to first today?:
My babe.
After breakfast, what did you do?:
I didn't eat u doofus!! don'T u get it!!!
Then what?:
I'm playing computer.
... And after that?:
i'm talking on the phone
What did you have for dinner/lunch?:
its too early for dinner/lunch. though i think i'll be eating macs for lunch.
Who made it?:
the ppl at macs la...duh!
Did you enjoy it?:
i probably will.
What did you do after dinner?:
wat dinner...
Did you go anywhere today?:
not as yet...
What time did you go on the internet?:
10.38am
How long have you been on the internet for?:
1hr13mins.
Did you make/receive any phone calls today?:
yesh..im still on the phone.
Have you sent/received any e-mails today?:
yes..from fridae and friendster. wat a bore.
How many surveys have you taken so far? ((not
including this one)):
so many... cant count.
Are you currently in an Instant Message chat?:
yesh
If so, who with and what's the topic?:
pali-abt jobs.
What music are you listening to?:
nelly n kelly rowland-dilemma.
If none, what song/tune have you got in your
head?
.
What mood are you in?:
grinding mood.
The best thing that happened to me today was...:
i woke up.
The worst thing that happened to me today was...:
im hungry.
I am in love with..:
someone special in my life.
The best word(s) to describe today is/are ...:
hunger.
If today was a colour, it would be...:
purple.
It would be this colour because...:
duh..i like this colour.
If today was a song it would be...:
nelly and kelly-dilemma.
--insignificant lies--
11:33 am
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
-more stuff from khai's bloggie-
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: ferri az-man
Birthplace ::: singapura, our sunny island
Age ::: eighteen.
Age you act ::: thirteen.(cos i feel so emotional and hormone-driven and fight with mommy like im 13.)
Current location ::: at home. DUH!
Eye color ::: dark brown!
Hair color ::: pocahontas black.
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: ambiDexTrous! hahaha..dun u just hate me...
Zodiac sign? ::: taurian. which is why im a stubborn bum.
Height? ::: 5"5 with brown eyes ;)
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: im singaporean.with 1/3 indian blood. 1/3 bugis blood and 1/3 malaccan ppl blood.
Your hair ::: short and spiky.
Your fears ::: destroying my life.
Your perfect room ::: lotsa purple things. pristine white walls. purple curtains. purple desk. purple candles on my black candle stand. my day bed but with a canopy over. with purple sheer canopy with stars all over. purple stars here and there. and a standing lamp. and a reading chair in one corner. purple. PURPLE!
*well actually i love my room now. though the walls are yellow. but i think my room is hot!!! *
What you practically do in a day ::: slack. bum. laze.
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: bacin. whatever. nabei. oh and i just realised i use duh! a lot.
Phrases you overuse ::: fuck off. fuck it. screw you. damn it.
Your first thought when you wake up ::: i wish i could sleep forever.
Your greatest accomplishment ::: being in JC and leaving that whole mat n minah lifestyle.
Something you want to do ::: surf.
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: pepsi. dil maange ;)
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: BK. anyday.
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: christina...duh! her voice is so farking power la.
Chocolate or vanilla ::: vanilla. duh-uh!
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas.
Black or white ::: black. im gothically in love.
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: of course bills la. i like crisp notes. which is why i have long wallet.
Burgers or hot dogs ::: hot dogs. 9 inch ones. hahaha...
Egypt or France ::: i can't decide!!!!
Rock or rap ::: rock. im a punk rock princess.
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: used to.
Cuss ::: everyday.
Sing well ::: not bad la. i got rhythm and melody la. but my vocal range not tt wide la.
Sing in the shower ::: most of the time.hahhaa....
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: since i can rmb. used to hear voices even.
Believe in yourself ::: never. i believe in others though.
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: not bad la.
Play an instrument ::: NONE!!! :(
Want to go to college? ::: im in jc. does tt count?
Want to get married? ::: now. im not so sure.
Want to have children? ::: this i am sure of!!! yes!!!!!!!!!! i decided i want a son.
Think you're a health freak? ::: sometimes.
Get along with your parents ::: yeah. only a bit of arguing la.
Get along with your siblings? ::: yeah babe. my sis and me.. we tight yo.
Think you're popular ::: of course. duh!
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: nope. bummer.
Drank alcohol ::: never man.
Smoke ::: nope. told u. i stopped. swear.
Get high ::: hehehehehehehe... ;)
Done any drugs ::: i take doxycycline a lot.
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: dun like oreos. cept maybe the cereal.
Been on stage ::: yeah to receive my CAP cert.
Gone skinny dipping ::: yah... suuuuuuuureeeeee....
Been dumped ::: nope! course not.
Dyed your hair ::: i wish.
Stolen anything ::: stolen you heart? ;)
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: my friends are not tt crazy. maybe renu! or div!
Loudest ::: hmm.... i can't think of anyone. maybe ad la. but in the loudmouth sense not the voume sense.
Most shy ::: hmm... hm... no one.
Blondest ::: is it bimbotic? hmm..i guess no one. hahahhaah...i dun make frens with bimbos.
Smartest ::: sofia seah hwee hoon. or leilani. both these peepz no need to study also can get A. damn scary.
Kindest ::: hmm...my friends are all mean!
Best personality ::: all my friends la. or not they become my friend for wat.
Most talented ::: su. she good a alot of things. hockey. singing. guitar.
Best singer ::: menaa.hands down.
Most ghetto ::: remy!
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: khai!
Pain in the ass ::: i dont make friends with pains in the ass.
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: as i said i don't make friends with such ppl
Funniest ::: nordin! hahaha...
Best person for advice ::: pali/khai
Dependable ::: khai and su and farha.
Trustworthy ::: i still don't trust anyone enough. but it would be khai or su.
Druggie ::: i hope none of my friends are druggies.
Most likely to end up in jail ::: that would be me actually!
Person you've known the longest ::: samuel ong
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i don't dream. that much.
Last nightmare ::: look above.
Car ride ::: hmm... taxi counts?
Last time you cried ::: abt two weeks back maybe.
Last movie seen ::: gila2 pengantin remaja.
Last movie rented ::: i think it is League of Extraordinary Gentlemen.
Last book read ::: angela carter's burning your boats.
Last curse word said ::: nabei.
Last word said ::: nabei.
Last time you laugh ::: just just now.
Last phone call ::: yesterday night. it was my dad. yesh.
Last CD played ::: cher. the one with the believe in life after love song. still listening actually. if not b4 tt its misha.
Last song you listened to ::: believe by cher.
Last annoyance ::: i annoyed myself. and now im sleepy.
Last IM ::: i dun IM. i MSN. so now im MSN-ing fia.
Last weird encounter ::: dun have any i can rmb.
Last person you hugged ::: yeah..u shld definitely guess this.
Last person you yelled at ::: my sister.and now she is in KL with mommy so no yelling. yeaH!
Last time you wore a skirt ::: umm.. monday. sch skirt. so bummer.
Last time you've been evil ::: forever.
Sarcastic? ::: always.
Last time you fought with your parents ::: last week.
Last time you wished upon a star ::: i look at stars. but dun wish on them. cept my purple star on my desk. it gives me hope.
Truth or Dare ::: dare. i can't tell the truth. the truth is just out there.
Spent quality time alone ::: now. tts why im doing this questionnaire.
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: MSN. fia. but not so frequent cos i doing this.
Do you feel lonely? ::: i dun really feel lonely. miss ppl yeah. but lonely no. cos i always got myself.
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: i wish i could sia. but how to TP a flat
How about egging someone's house ::: never sia. u think i loanshark ah?
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: siow. i really dislike you nOw!!
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: i prefer rock.
Yo Momma ::: this the beat that make your booty move momma.
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: lotsa times. i have weird eating habits see.
What do you think of George Bush? ::: bushy.
Any secret fetishes? ::: hair fetish ;)
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: im also not into s/m
How many languages do you speak? ::: eng, malay, chinese(abit) and hindi.
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: my back hurts la. not fingers. my fingers are fine... :)
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: no. i want more.
--insignificant lies--
10:20 am
-this one is from khai's bloggie again-
[The story behind your email add]:
dr_alex_kingston@hotmail.com
alex kingston is an actress. she stars in ER(which is my most fav show in the entire planet. i have taped down most of the episodes. u shld see my collection!!). and i wanted alex_kingston@hotmail.com but some doofus already has it!!! grr. so i added the dr in front cos well she plays a dr in ER. so duh!.. u get dr_alex_kingston@hotmail.com
[Where do you live?]:
in my lala land.
[3 words that sum you up]:
Slack, Emotional, Confused
[Hairbrush]:
Ah...first and foremost..what hair??? and i still think of cutting some more...durr
so the ans to this... NO!!!
[jewelry you wear daily]:
my silver diamond stud on my left ear, 4 black bands, weizhen's red strap on cuff thing, and my grey and white snake skin cuff, and my necklace with dolphin pendant.
[Pillow cover]:
Its deep purple baby!!
[Hair]:
short. tomboyish. spiky(but only if i bother to spike it)
however,
i am wearing a purple hairband on my head now. in an attempt to redeem my girlie self.
[In my head]:
my brain.
is screwed
with tormented thoughts
of study
and of play.
which to do first?
i choose play.
*hahahah*
[Some of your favorite movies:]
the hours, sense and sensibility, finding nemo, devdas, k3g.
[The last thing you ate?]:
roti prata.
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]:
of destroying my life with my own fears and inhibitions.
[Do you like candles]:
i love them!!! i have some stashed everywhere...
[Do you believe in soul mates]:
yesh i do. im a born romantic optimist.
[Do you believe in love at first sight]:
no. that is what we call a crush.
however,
i do believe that you can get this good feeling that that person u see can have a strong connection with you.
kinda like gut instinct.
[If you could have any animal for a pet]:
just a plain old black cat. so i can seem more goth. haha... but anyways.. i love cats.
*puss in boots*
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]:
my mother.
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]:
prasantti philips roy!!
[Cried:]
not for awhile now. which i think is good.
much happier :)
[Gotten sick:]
a while back. when sch was still open. tt was pretty bad. cough was horrendous.
[Hugged someone:]
hehehe... i've been hugging a lot. let me tell you tt... ;)
[Wanted to tell someone you loved them:]
i want to do that now!
[Talked to an ex]:
really long time ago. sam!! call me!!!
[Fought with your parents:]
havent fought with my mom since last week. because of..i also cant rmb. argue with her all the time tt i just forget... she does to.
which is GOOD!!!
[Dreamed about someone you can't be with:]
ooh...my azlin dreams are no more. so this hasnt happened in so long....
[Who have you known the longest:]
of course my parents la..duh!
[Who do you always get along with:]
almost everyone who loves me and whom i love back.
:)
--insignificant lies--
10:19 am
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
ok im so digging this dumb questionnaires.
this one is from khai's blog.
10 important things inside your backpack
x hp
x little red book
x pencil
x eraser
x any form of writing material
x black pen
x keys
x discman
x gatsby wax
x wallet
9 things that you really want right now
x my baby girl
x books by every indian writer i love
x new journal(i have a serious journal fetish)
x money.loads of it.
x new clothes
x sneakers (black with red laces. xtra punk)
x new jeans (to go with the sneakers)
x black and dark blue nail polish
x chocolates and ice cream
8 of your favorite foods
x ice cream,brownies. junk.
x sambal goreng...YUM!!!
x fish
x pasta (penne with cream sauce and a dash of tobasco sauce)
x tea and coffee
x snapple
x milk/vitagen
x my nenek's nasi lemak n nasi briyani
7 of your closest friends, (not in order)
x khai
x su
x j
x farha
x leila
x kei
x gang(ok there's 5 of us but we are still considered as one.)
6 of your fav movies
x devdas
x sense n sensibility
x the hours
x a walk in the clouds
x k3g (though i hate to admit it)
x sound of music (ultimate joy!)
5 things in your room
*beams* (my fav topic!!)
x my lusciously divine day bed
x my small but yet fulfilling study table with all the things
x my purple curtains and my purple bedsheets. (esp the bedsheets)
x my yellow wall with my purple noticeboard
x my candle stand(so black gothic, wicca-like)
4 things you ate/drank today
x water
x nasi goreng
x mee goreng
x horlicks
3 things you couldn't live without
*just realised for this mine is exaclty like khai's
x family & friends
x hp & journal
x books. (story books mind you.)
2 things you usually read
x books. indian writers. been reading some angela carter these days. (stuff that are good for the soul and for my writing basically.)
x magazines (malay mags mainly cos my mom buys a lot. all the dishy gossip.. tsk tsk.)
1 person you can't forget
x my father
--insignificant lies--
8:03 pm
1. What is your full name?
Farah Azman
2. When is your birthday?
20th May 1986
3. What is the best gift you ever received on your birthday?
Love.
4. What schools have you attended?
*St. Anthony's Pri Sch
*Crescent Girl's Sch
*Anderson Junior College
5. What can we find in your wardrobe?
Clothes.
All my sch books and notes.
Bags.
Facial Stuff.
Makeup.
Accessories.
Journals.
Perfumes.
Bras.
Undies.
;)
6. What is the least likely that we can find in your wardrobe?
Neatly folded clothes.
7. What can we find on your study table?
oooh..lotsa things..
*my purple star
*my periodic table cup aka place to put pens
*my basket of potpourri with tiny purple cushions and candle and laced with my silver jewellery
*my cute "bear" holding photoframe aka piggy bank
*bear su gave me
*gang smiley face
*photoframe with pic of me n ruzie
*my mushroom hp holder
*bear i got for getting 10pts in prelims
*heartshaped bottle with candle shavings khai gave me for vday in sec 3
*porcelain bear on stack of books aka can be opened to put things in
*I LOVE MY TABLE*
8. Favourite ice cream?
anything with vanilla.
9. Favourite cartoon character?
powerpuff girls ie. bubbles!!!!
10. Who is the hottest cartoon character?
Rogue.
11. Do you think you can win a million dollars on Survivor?
No. Don't think so. I do think i can lose weight.
12. Who would you take with you on the Amazing Race?
Me, Myself and I. Cos i got the best sense of direction ever.
13. Which of your classmate would you take with you on Amazing Race?
Leilani.. cos she follows watever i say.. hee*
14. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
same sex you mean.. hehe...well..the first thing would definitely be the smile.
15. Do you think anyone in your class is hot?
GROSS!
16. Do you have a crush on someone in your class?
Once again.. GROSS!!!
17. Who do you think is hot amongst your friends of your gender?
SU!!! :D
18. Do you play a musical instrument?
I forget lioaz. Only thing i remb is recorder!
19. What movie makes you cry?
It depends really.
20. Who makes you cry?
My mother is definitely the top candidate!
21. Who makes you laugh?
My beautiful friends.
22. What would you save first if your house was burning?
The gifts ppl have given me and my misha omar cd.
23. Do you like animals?
Certain animals ie. cat and hamsters
24. What would you name your children?
Indra Sufi and Sufiya Natasha.
25. Have you ever fallen for someone who was attached?
Don't think so.
26. Do you have a nickname?
Ferri Az-Man
27. What do you think of homosexuals?
That is a dumb question to ask me. I'm sure you know what my ans would be.
28. What do you think of good looking and hot homosexuals?
Can they be mine?
29. How many times have you told someone you loved him/her?
Everday that i am in love with him/her.
30. Did u mean it when u said it?
I don't say it unless i mean it. Cos i don't mislead ppl.
31. Have you ever kissed your date before?
Ah-but-then!
32. Which outlets do you do most of your shopping at?
Anywhere where the things are good n cheap...haha...
But i go to Roxy and Ripcurlgirl a lot!
33. Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt?
Brad. But both of them are not my fav at all...
34. How do you spend your weekend nights?
In front of my comp!
35. Whats the most valuable thing that you have lost?
My life.
--insignificant lies--
7:45 pm
Sunday, June 20, 2004
it's unbelievable really.
i can't believe.
i'm still not over it.
how fast thing changes.
and how fast things become beautiful.
and if i could
run a thousand miles
i would.
and hold the torch in my hand.
and i'll never let it die.
not for truth.
not for lies.
or anything else in between.
and to just dive
into waters deeper than what i feel
i'd submerge myself.
and drown.
in silence.
and a smile upon my face.
forever.
for ever.
in your arms.
in your breath.
your taste in my mouth.
--insignificant lies--
11:32 am
Saturday, June 19, 2004
today.
did nothing much.
tried reading NMR.
but i understood nothing.
got lazy.
ended up watching like mike.
then surprisingly dad called.
wanted to meet mom.
mom was out.
then we told him we havent ate.
took us out 4 lunch.
nice.
at al-ameen.
and he gave us $100 each.
way cool.
im so easily bribed.
im not as penniless as i tot.
and mom n sis going 4 hols.
monday to thurs.
alone at home.
oh well...
got to really study.
tmr i hope to achieve a lot.
but i really never believe in myself.
not enough.
u can do this!!!!
:D
--insignificant lies--
9:54 pm
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
im bored.
its maghrib. and i really dun feel like doing anything at all.
i want to study. soon. ok...
target. 8oclock.
bio time.
yesh!
focused.
pls farah.
pls.
--insignificant lies--
7:11 pm
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Une Affaire De Femmes
so i have done nothing.
i dont deserve to watch the show really.
my stomach is so full now.
and i have nothing to say abt my lackaidaisical self.
so i shall now go away.
and sleep.
thanks for nothing me.
--insignificant lies--
3:43 pm
hey bloggy...
guess wat...
in my effort to start studying..
i realise how dusty my room is.
so decided to sweep.
then i realised tt i feel like studying and facing the window...
and thus...
i shifted my table back to the window!!!
and i swept my room.
and washed my fan.
god...why is there so much dust!!!!
urgh..maybe later i'll mop.
ok...now i am going to face my study table.
*swivelling chair*
and
continue i mean start my studying.
transport!!! yay!!!
;)
--insignificant lies--
11:24 am
ok...i am gonna start studying now.
just need to document this.
im getting running nose i think.
and im so gonna get screwed when i start sch again.
cos the pe dept will kill me for not coming for the trg sessions.
oh screw it.
watever.
ok STUDY TIME!!!! STUDY!!!!
--insignificant lies--
10:32 am
hiya..
good morning..
i am now listening to mxpx.
reminding me of times long ago.
when this kinda punk music was in.
its like i can feel it on my teeth.
the jarring sounds.
the familiar taste in my mouth when i hear mike singing.
its mxpx man!
mxpx.
im gonna bathe soon.
and then start reading bio.
i hope i can do it!
i believe i can.
the funny n puzzling thing is that..
my mom has disappeared.
but where???
where??
anw peepz check out my fotopages.
CliCk here doofus!
--insignificant lies--
10:09 am
Monday, June 14, 2004
ohk..
the heart is not full of hatred anymore.
im cool.
cept now my comp got plentiful of viruses.
exciting aint it?
i love it.
trojans.
and im not talking troy.
how i wish i cld just swim in waters.
so deep.
and wallow.
in dunes of terror
ashen facets
of my assiduous shots
through my laborious life.
don't make sense?
im not trying to.
i dunno why im not motivated anymore to study.
i have this imaginations in my brain
whereby i get up and start taking out my organiser and planning like mad.
then i actually do what i planned out to do...
and it aint happening.
and that bugs the f out of me.
f me.
alrite..tmr i will start slow.
or else im not going for my french film.
lets set out some targets...
1.finish transport
2.group II and VII
3.integration
4.Alkanes and alkenes
ohk..tt shld be enuff i think.
i hope.
--insignificant lies--
9:48 pm
screw it. fuck it.
biatch.
whatever.
--insignificant lies--
1:32 pm
Saturday, June 12, 2004
hey blog..
been awhile yeah.
we had the crescent carnival.
11 June 04
wonderful day. i really felt like its a big deal.
cos we are two years old.
and we have done two great things.
the best part is definitely having all this crez ppl together.
and then when we played the game. it was great.
it was united.
and it was nice.
we had all the seniors and juniors just mixing together.
and playing as one.
beautiful.
cant get there anywhere else.
that feeling that swells in my heart
when i play with them.
i love them all.
every single one of my crescent peepz.
in no apparent order...
[ su, nurah, lynn, farha, rely, loi, tiff, farah sidek, farah noh, farahzean, ad, shikin, layla, june, o xiang, stefni, hui jia, mavis, michelle, weizhen, tank, joyce, watee, jackie, fariza, whitney, wong xi, zhe qing, and the div 2 juniors and all those who have crescent blazing in their hearts.]
and most importantly...
[ nordin ]
our daddy, coach, buddy.. cool!!!
*muacks*
crescent forever!!!!
--insignificant lies--
10:17 pm
Thursday, June 10, 2004
21 & invicible.
tmr is crez hockey club 2nd annual carnival.
hahaha..so exciting.
can't wait sia.
farha n rely gonna bring elly along.
so cool.
think tt will b quite fun.
ok..we will see tmr..
:D
--insignificant lies--
11:32 pm
Friday, June 04, 2004
+ androgyny +
i'm supposed to be writing.
but i cant seem to start.
i guess i am so scared that i will screw up.
and i really hate to make corrections.
that bums me out.
urggh..
oh well..
guess i better get going..
blog later..
ciaoz..
--insignificant lies--
10:47 am
